Has anyone ever noticed that life has a funny way of knocking you down, then keeping you down?

I mention this because I'm going through some really tough shit at the moment. It started in October 2008, when my mum got suspended from her job as a nurse following (false) allegations of assault- it went to a court of law, where it got thrown out, however the NHS decided that my mum had done it and essentially fired her after a year and 3 months in limbo.
around January '09, I started posting videos on youtube, and I immediately got people posting abuse at me, naming me specifically (I never put my real name on those videos, and I won't reveal it here- those of you who know my name know who you are), leading me to the conclusion that they know who I am IRL.

Fast forward to today, I have realized that all of this has taken its toll, and despite counseling (which I have been attending weekly since Jan '10), I had an emotional breakdown after a particularly stressful guitar performance at school. Since then (around 12:00 GMT), I have thought long and hard and realized that every time I've tried to pick myself up since then, life has kicked me back down again. What's worse is the fact that if I were to try and take a break to sort all of these personal problems out, I would basically jeopardize my A-levels, and therefore any future job prospects due to the ridiculous inflexibility of the national curriculum, which expects me to work as if everything was OK.

I'm not a quitter, but I'm considering just giving up- maybe A-levels aren't for me, perhaps I should wait it out and get a different kind of qualification later in life.

but what if this is the only chance I'll get at further qualifications?

that, people of newgrounds, is my dilemma- what do I do? I need the opinion of someone who doesn't really know me that well, so that I may weigh up my options.

I leave you with a children of bodom song that pretty much sums out how I'm feeling at the moment:

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